Today I went to Canton Norte to teach in the morning. It was perhaps the worst day I have had here. I got there and texted to have someone meet me. There was no reply. I waited five minutes and then texted again. Then I texted Angela and she said she was sending someone. Then, Lt. Herazo texted he was sending someone. Another 10 minutes passed by and still no one came. Class started and I was there standing at the gate.
10 more minutes passed and I was angry and frustrated and felt like crying. Finally a nice soldier walked me to the language building. No one ever came to get me and I wrote a message to Lt. Herazo to let him know I was upset.
I ended up coming into class late and Angela did not even acknowledge that she left me standing there. She is supremely unhelpful. I tried really hard to not show how angry I was, but I am sure she felt it. Class went well, though – I loved the soldiers.
I talked to Angela a bit afterwards when I had calmed down – and that evening I talked to Patricia, my RC (regional coordinator) as well. I am so very fed up with the lack of support or interest they have in me teaching here at Canton Norte – I mean why am I even here if I am just sitting there not participating? I want to be useful – I came here to teach and participate. What am I doing here and why won’t anyone talk to me or include me if I’m to be working here? I have only worked one day and it has been a whole month that I’ve been here!
Patricia and I had a good talk- I’m so glad that she met with me. She is going to try to get me a contact at the school that I can talk to who will give me some direction. I really want to do a good job. It was good just to unload all my frustration as well, it made me feel a little less alone and as though there is hope that things will improve.